Saturday, July 4, 2015

Mana Gadis Ayu Tu?

Assalamualaikum

Hi guys! Kebelakangan ni rajin benornye nak menype... Tak da mood nak bercakap jadi saya menype huahua... Okay, kebanyakan kawan saya terutama kawan baru daripada Asasi memandang saya like gadis ayu, 'muslimah' (lah sangat hahaha), bukan gila-gila blablabla seangkatannya. Guess what? Semua salah! Hah! Hahahaha. Dan terutama lelaki lah. Kalau In cerita mengenai In time sekolah especially sekolah rendah diorang macam "yeeeeeeeee keeeeeeee" (dengan nada pelik dan sukar untuk percaya). Argh I am so tired. 

You see, apa yang korang lihat tak semestinya 100% benar. OR, you see what your eyes wanna see! Ahahhh! Wait, that doesn't mean that I was fake. I am not. Okay, ini bukan setakat among friends, among family members pun macam dalam rumah lain, luar rumah lain. AKA diorang nak kata In berlakon ke ape la kannn. Seriously guys. I don't have to explain actually. Common sense. Dalam rumah tu siapa? FAMILY MEMBERS. Which means, orang paling dekat dengan kita dan rapat. Apabila kita dekat dan rapat, automatik kita berperangai 'lebih luar biasa' Hahahah! Common sense dude. Anddd, bila kita kat luar, ada adabnya dan perilaku tertentu agar masyarakat hormat kepada kita. Hidup perlu bertolak ansur. Sometimes, it depends on the people that we met. 

In boleh kata almost, especially yang baru kenal In tanggapan mereka likely be like... ;

1) In seorang gadis lemah lembut
2) In seorang yang sombong
3) In seorang yang tidak suka bersukan
4) In seorang muslimah
5) In seorang 'puteri lilin'

Maybe I missed out something tapi tak dapat ingat. Lebih kurang macam tu tanggapan orang yang tak kenal In. Kalau tanggapan family, lagi berterabur :P Tapi itu privacy saya huahua... Firstly, In mungkin lemah lembut but I AM NOT ALWAYS LIKE THAT. Especially dengan orang yang terdekat. Okay contohlah, dengan brothers. I am totally opposite with 'lemah lembut'. Sometimes, In memang bercakap lemah lembut dengan diorang but most of the time, I can be...errr...faham-2 sendiri. SIBLINGS derrrr... hahahaha. Tapi bila di luar, I am totally opposite most of the time. Adakah itu menunjukkan bukan perangai sebenar In? Berlakon? Fake? NO. I am still NN. Ia sebenarnya dipanggil MANNERS. Apabila bertemu dengan saudara-mara lain, or orang lain dalam kalangan masyarakat mestilah lebih berhemah dan sopan. You can't be like between you and your siblings,kan? The manners are IN ME. So definitely that is me. I am being myself. Get it? Understood? Lewls.

Secondly, saya seorang yang sombong. Betul ke? Seriously, the answer is YES...and NO. My yes is of course In kena 'sombong' dengan mostly...lelaki luar sana. In kena jaga ikhtilat. I am trying so...help me out, guys. I can't do it by myself. And strangers out of nowhere...! Kenala sombong, terlalu mesra nanti kang kena culik pulakkk lewls... My no is because kalau In kenal In pasti tegur punya la. Melainkan In malu. Malu dan sombong jauh sangat beza dia okay?  Thirdly, MY GOD! Gila lah kalau In tak suka bersukan. My another side sangat lasak, suka adventure. Suka outdoor activities. Suka bersukan tetapi tak begitu berbakat so sukan setakat mampu je lol. In seorang pemain hoki (bunyi macam hebat je hahahaha). Waktu sekolah rendah. Thank you cikgu Iskandar sebab mempercayai In untuk mewakili sekolah kita and we won. 1st place! 1st time masuk 1st time menang nombor 1 pulak tu. The pains time berlatih, peh masih ingat lagi. Time sekolah menengah under hoki juga tapi tak pergi berlatih dan of course tak pergi mewakili sekolah sebab masalah peribadi. NVM story lain kali. Banyak bercamping je as a Scout! Daki gunung, redah hujan, redah panas, redah ketiadaan air semua I experienced okay. Tak lasak...ke? Kem ketahanan pengawas and all those lasak activities dah redah. Tell meeee,tak lasak KEEE?

In seorang muslimah? Ok I really appreciate it when you guys said that. Macam doa. Kata-kata tu doa, in syaa Allah. Look, kita semua muslimah, tetapi adakah kita muslimah sejati? Tanya diri sendiri.  But let me tell you something, apa yang In pakai, apa yang In tutur itu semua basic things and ilmu for sharing. A little ilmu that I shared untuk saham akhirat. I am not saying that I am too good or too bad. But don't look up to me too much because In rasa I am nobody. In tak capai apa-apa pun. In cuma ikut perintah Allah in basic things. In bukan hafizah, In bukan ustazah yang berilmu penuh didada siap sedia menjawab apa-apa soalan ugama secara umum or seangkatannya. I am sooo tahap merangkak-rangkak lagi. hahah. A lot more to learn :)) And thennn, orang mungkin pandang In macam 'puteri lilin tak tahan panas'. In tak perlu bahas sangat soalan ni sebab In rasa kekawan asasi sendiri dah lihat :P, In redah pergi mana-mana di uni/around Shah Alam dengan berjalan kaki tengah-tengah panas. Rarely took a bus. Hahahaha. Obviously am not putri lilin. I got sunburn, I didn't freakkk outtt like other girls. You are afraid, that you don't look pretty when you are 'black'...or even infront of the men. Then, you are not finding someone who will accept you for who you are. Sometimes, In suka testing out apabila In kena sunburn. In cuba tengok apa orang sekeliling kata. Skin colour, is not a problem at all, to me. In tahu siapa diri In, bagaimana diri In. People will be like, "kau tak pe la kau putih. Boleh la kau tak kisah kena sunburn." I don't get it. 1stly, maybe waktu In kena sunburn, orang yang baru kenal In mungkin bersangka In memang hitam. Lewls. 2ndly, orang yang cakap macam tu actually putih juga tetapi kena sunburn dia rasa diri dia memang gelap sejak azali walhal tak. Confused. Lewls. 

The reason why I brought up this matter adalah In nak korang kenal diri sendiri, be yourself and jangan dengar sangat orang sekeliling. Do not change to fit in the societies. Be yourself, be flexible to fit in. Get your common sense. Konfiden dengan nikmat yang Tuhan sedia ada kasi kat korang. If people keep telling you that you are fake but you're not, get a gun and shoot them. Lol, kidding! Just ignore it. Konsep In, In selalu ignore dengan komen-komen orang macam tu termasuk family members. Sometimes, kita terlalu amek serius walhal they are just trying to tease you. You are getting emotional so sudden. Chill babes. Hahahahah. You can say, I am ayu, I am kurang hajo, I am lasak, I am garang, I am pemalu, I am tak tahu malu , I am fake. Doesn't matter. Semua tu adalah saya except for fake of course. I am flexible, I have manners, I have common sense how to behave in any kind of situation or people. You ask my family, you ask my close friends, you ask my new friends, anybody that knew me, you'll get different answers. In percaya, bukan In seorang...tapi korang juga. Most of you are not fake or pretending. Ia hanya satu keadaan yang membawa anda ke arah itu. Hahaha. People sometimes don't understand this but it doesn't matter as long as you know yourself and your partner-to-be aka husband-or-wife should slightly know :P. Well, cuba bayangkan dalam tempoh perkenalan anda macam gadis melayu terakhir but bila dah kahwin tengok-tengok macam...i don't know but something that is opposite to it. Terkejut partner you allsss nanti. Sooo give them a hint. "Awak, awak terima saya seadanya kan. Walaupun kekadang saya jinak macam kucing, garang macam singa atau blablabla" Hahahahaha ! :P Kekadang manusia itu tidak berubah, cuma korang tak kenal dia sebetulnya lagi. See yeaaa! ;)

"Mana gadis ayu tu?"

Me : "Gadis ayu tu hilang jap, time to be lasak for awhile babeee! Jom bersukannn!" 

P/s gadis yang benar-benar ayu tak mungkin berlasak sukan. Soooo not me. 

:: NN ::

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