Monday, January 1, 2018

Marriage [?]

Assalamualaikum

Happy New Year, Selamat Tahun Baru, Salam 2018 semua! Dah masuk 22 tahun, unofficially, alhamdulillah. I wish 2018 brings a lot of joys in our lives. I wish for MORE love, LESS gossip and heart breaks ^_^, Tengah dalam musim final exam sekarang ni, pray for me aite? hee~

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So, what's up with the topic? So I actually have this one friend yang suka bertanya, which is good. But mostly, soalan dia buat In berfikir lebih sikit hahah. I like it though. Not too long ago, my friend suddenly asked me, in the car. 

"Kenapa hang nak kahwin?

At first blur juga lah dengan soalan tu hahaha! I was like , "Uh? Maksud hang?" Hahaha, so dia explained, then only I understood~ So the question is actually in general. It does not matter whether now you are single, no special friend, or you are now having a boyfriend/girlfriend, just broke up, engaged and what so ever. Because this question for those yang dalam hidup ni dia nak kahwin. So, orang yang tak nak kahwin, this question is not for you obviously. Hahahaha. 

Apabila dah masuk umur 20-an, topik kahwin is very common. Orang akan selalu bertanya and sometimes sedang syok bersembang tiba-tiba eh cakap pasal kahwin. Gitchu~ I am not sure whether korang dah ada jawapan sendiri dalam diri? If no, then you may ask yourself, "Kenapa aku nak kahwin?" ;) For me, I did not have the pressure to answer my friend's question because memang dah pernah fikir and memang dah ada jawapan sejak, entah lama dah lah fikir, hahahah! I mean, if you want something, you need to know why first, with at least a reason, kan? Takkan lah saja-saja nak. So, yea kalau ada rezeki dan umur yang panjang of course I want to get married. Know why? Save it for later. Hahaha.

This marriage topic pun ada discussed in my class. My lecturer said to us, nowadays, people get married due to tekanan masyarakat and at the end, the marriage didn't last longer. That is too sad. I know, apabila kita habis belajar, ada pekerjaan, umur pula dah 25 tahun lagi kerap orang akan bertanya, "Bila nak kahwin?", or bila kawan-kawan kita dah kahwin, mata orang automatik akan fokus ke yang belum kahwin ni hahahah. But know what, you don't have to worry. Don't rush thing like this. Kalau ada orang bertanya cakap saja , "doakan saya" ewah. 

Because for me, benda ni akan datang pada waktunya. Of course, you pray. But dalam hidup ni ada aturannya. In syaa Allah, benda ni akan datang ke kita once we are ready. Selagi tak datang, you just pray, ask Allah and just focus on yourself first. Achieve other things dulu, because in life, ada banyak lagi kita boleh buat dulu like travelling, (pastu jumpa la jodoh time tu)? hee~kkkk.... I know some people yang getting nervous because umur makin meningkat, jangan katakan kahwin, bayang jodoh pun tak nampak lagi. And I also understand yang nak kahwin awal especially before 30 lah sebab selepas umur tu, it's kind of leceh dalam a few matters and ada other consequences especially for women to bear. And I as a woman also, personally kalau boleh before 28, like 28 tu kira dah masuk tahun ke-berapa tah-lah ehem hahahaha! Because takutttt takuttt la dah lepas 28 tu rasa macam ah malas ah nak kahwin hahahaha. I'm so unexpected -.-''' But hey, kita boleh rancang and set goals je but most of them kerja Allah. 

So back to the question, kenapa nak kahwin dalam hidup ni? Sebab In tak suka berada dalam satu fasa or posisi yang sama. I mean, okay kalau rumah, In tak suka duduk satu rumah, or tempat tu lama sangat. Waktu kecik-kecik, In nak membesar cepat because I wanted to know how the life is, (cis serabut betul bila dah besar ni hahaha), and same goes to title. From single, to married woman. In nak tahu macam mana marriage life ni. In nak merasa sendiri. Tak nak lah selamanya single. In nak ada progress dalam kehidupan. Ke satu fasa dan ke satu fasa. Because I believe, from there juga In akan belajar banyak benda, dan akan menghargai lebih ramai orang dan kehidupan. Gitchu. 

I don't really know how to put this into perfect words but that is the main reason lah. Marriage is something new (phase), and I would love to experience it with of course, dengan siapa lagi aku nak kahwin kalau bukan dengan orang terchentaaaa... ehem. And I believe, dalam alam perkahwinan juga buat kita realise what we are more capable of and at the same time kita akan lebih matang dan dewasa. Handle kids ain't easy. Anak orang, anak sendiri tak sama. Tengok orang beranak, kita beranak sendiri, tak sama. Lol! The love and struggles in marriage. So many things, it's like never ending process dalam alam perkahwinan selagi hidup. Hahaha. 

And not to forget juga somehow marriage is a little bit scary for me, tapi kekawan memang takut sungguh lol. Yang takut sungguh dulu tu nanti jalan dulu :P , But know what, jangan fikir dulu. Fikir bila tiba masanya hahahaha! What I mean, kalau nak kahwin, kahwin je lah. Segala apa masalah mendatang tu hadap and handle bila ia datang lah. Simple meh. Same goes to, jangan fikir pasal jodoh sangat. Dia datang bila dia perlu datang. Hahahah. 

So, I like changes, I like to explore, I like to go further and deeper. Generally, by that reasons, I want to get married selagi hidup. Hahaha. If specifically, there are more reasons than just a phase in life. But that, mostly clicheeeee ><''' So what about you guys? Do you wanna get married and if yes, generally, why? ^_^ 

ps: some people cakap tak boleh fikir lagi sebab kenapa nak kahwin because they said they haven't found their jodoh lagi. However they said, "maybe nak elak maksiat". Well, anything will do. I don't judge hahah. But personally, if you wanna get married, you should already have a reason walaupun still single and jodoh masih sorok hahah.

Thank you

:: NN ::

Thursday, November 23, 2017

Appreciation Post [2]

Assalamualaikum

Hi everyone. There's no class today and I decided to take a full rest. And suddenly I feel like I need to update my blog about my appreciation post. The second appreciation post is for my childhood friend! Yyyyupppppppppp! 

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He's my one and only childhood friend yang dah macam family. He treated my family like his own. And he was and still always be there for me whenever I need him.  We talked some serious and dumb stuffs. The dumb stuffs like 'Weh, what if aku kena culik nanti?' He said, he will find me no matter what.. Aceyyyyh!!! Hahahahaha. And he said he wanted to go to Rusia. To further his studies something like that ah. And I said bring me along! And he replied, sure of course he will bring me only if he has some money. LOL! And he said, dia tak akan tinggalkan aku walaupun dah ada isteri nanti. OMG that's tough man! You need to find the right and cool woman XD Ingat, perempuan mudah cemburu kahkahkah. Eh, so far, exclude me okay. Hahahaha. So dumb stuffs like that we were talking about. Hahahahaha. I did not sound so serious but trust me, he sounded very like VERY serious. Haih laaa, back to reality please bro hahahaha. 

And, whenever I feel dispirited and unmotivated, dia datang bagi nasihat walaupun nasihat dia kekadang tak kena tempat rasa macam nak bagi makan kaki kat dia, but hey, I appreciate it. Sebab later on I will take a look with his advices again and actually, your words do give me strength!!! 

So my dear very dear childhood friend, thank you so much selalu bersabar dengan aku. Aku selalu layan hang macam nak tak nak but you know why? Because we are so damn close enough like real siblings! Hahaha. And setiap kali hang tanya, "aku ni penting tak untuk hang?' I was like weh sorry if I'm not good enough for you. Of course lah hang penting buat aku. And I still remember bila hang dapat tahu ada lelaki kacau aku, kemain lagi nak jumpa face to face dengan lelaki tu. Heyyy, walaupun dah dilarang, dalam diam hang buat belakang aku. hahahaa. Protective betul hang ni. Memang aku tak boleh control hang bab tu. Hang memang cari siapa orang tu hahahaha siut lah. Nasib tak gaduh. Aku kata dah kurang-kurangkan gangster hang tu haishhh. Seriauuuu! XD

And weh, ambil lah nasihat aku cari perempuan baik-baik. Bila aku tak berkenan dengan perempuan tu tolonglah percayakan aku and tak payah setia nak tunggu perempuan yang bukan untuk hang. HAHAHA. Disebabkan hang tak dengar nasihat aku, degil betul hm kan dah rasa. Aku tau hang baik, dan perempuan tu baik juga. Tapi tak baik untuk hang. Dan hang pun tak baik untuk dia LOL.  Aku still ingat we had a deep conversation about this kennnn. And sorry aku terlalu jujur dengan hang tapi lastly hang admit juga apa aku kata tu betui kennnn :P  So sebelum nak buat next move mana-mana perempuan mohon tunjuk kat aku dulu XD HAHAH Helloooo aku pun protective jugekkkk. Tak mau la banyak kali my precious friend ni terluka di hati ><''' hohoho~

But weh, whatever you did to me back then, bagi nasihat ke dengar luahan hati aku pasal kehidupan bagai ni thanks a lot. Terima kasih juga dengan bebelan dan amarah aku kahkah. And thanks jugak bertahan dengan merajuk aku berbulan-bulan tewww... OMG aku tak pernah merajuk dengan sesiapa (kawan) sampai macam tu tapi dengan hang time tu entah la. Geram gila dengan hang XD And haritu contact, aku still kata kat hang "aku masih merajuk lagi dengan hang okay" And hang iyakan je la HAHAHAHAHA siut laaa... But but merajuk-merajuk aku pun still aku bebaik dengan hang kennn:P Sorry la okay la dah tak merajuk sekarang kuikui

Tiada apa aku harapkan selain kesihatan yang baik untuk hang. Kebahagiaan yang HAKIKI untuk hang. Emm okay la dan pasangan yang terbaik tuk hang XD Tapi ingat aku still nak screening dulu mana-mana perempuan pilihan hati hang. Hahahaha. Hang la kawan dunia akhirat aku. Baik buruk hang aku terima seadanya. Thanks juga baik buruk aku hang terima. Hang kenal aku dari kecik sampai besaq. Muka hang ja aku duk nampak dari kecik sampai besaq walaupun dah tak selalu tapi tu lah hahaha hang still ada buat aku anytime hehe. Itu yang aku suka dan paling suka KAHHH. And aku pun selalu ada untuk hang okay, tapi waktu urgent and penting-penting ja okay? hahahaha. Thanks sesangat bila hang tau aku punya musim tengah tak okay, you kept contacting me tanya aku macam mana blablabla. Kekadang terlalu kerap aku macam heiiii tak payah la selalu tanya bukan orang nak bunuh diri pun hahahahaha! But I know you were genuinely worried about me awwwhhhhhhhhhhh HAHAHA. 

Last but not least, aku tak de la nak kata benda ni selalu tapi ye lah, aku sayang hang lah dan hang penting buat aku. Hang member aku dari kecik sampai la ni. Alhamdulillah Moga baik-baik saja yang berlaku dalam hidup hang dan setiap permasalahan hang dipermudahkan. Aku tau hang ni kekadang gopoh gak, haa yang tu baiki la noh. hahah. Take care there bro. My brother from another mother. ;)

:: NN ::


Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Appreciation Post [1]

Assalamualaikum

Hi semua. Long time no see. Busy. Sedikit perkembangan tentang diri, sekarang saya dah masuk third year degree. Alhamdulillah. Semoga segalanya dipermudahkan dan dapat graduate tepat pada waktunya yea in syaa Allah aamiin Allahumma aamiin. 

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Saya dalam mood nak buat appreciation post untuk orang-orang yang saya masih ingat, terhutang budi, sayang (?) dan seumpamanya lah. So this person came to my mind quite frequent lately. This person is a friend of mine and this friend is a He. hahah. Banyak kenangan ada dengan dia. I still remember most of them. Ada yang tak ingat and I do not know why. Felt like getting an amnesia lewls. (Sebab jarang iols lupa kenangan). So yeah. Probably there must be something wrong with me? ^^''' 

Anyway, I would like to thank him alot. I can't tell this to him personally secara tiba-tiba sebab, dia mungkin akan fikir ke arah lain like , "why so sudden?" Gitchu. Satgi dia ingat bebukan pulek. I started with this guy because like I said lately when I do a lot of thinking, he came first. As this post meant to be an indirect appreciation post, anggaplah post ini as I say to him personally. So after this I'll use "aku-hang".  If you read this, acknowledge this and thought it could be you, do let me know so that I'll know "Ouh, orang yang sepatutnya baca dah baca dan apa aku rasa tentang dia sampai ke empunya appreciation post' Gitchu. 

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Aku, masih ingat macam mana kita mula berkawan. Apabila hang tiba-tiba called aku dan menangis sebab putus cinta or more likely had an issue with your girlfriend. I was confused at that time sebab time tu kita tak rapat sangat and that was so sudden. Sudah la time tu aku tengah dengan kekawan Asasi. Hahahaha. (Bang! You are the only one guy yang pernah menangis dekat aku sebab putus cinta. So if you read this, and remember this thing, yes I'm talking about you.) Chill, people won't know. 

As you know, selepas kita habis SPM aku masuk Asasi Undang-Undang, mannn that was not easy. I mean, belajar perundangan time tu walaupun ASASI JE. But you were there. Indeed, at first I helped you. Went through all sort of things but that was nothing compared to how you helped me through during my Asasi. How you helped me with my research. Remember? Pasal the word "Allah" used by Christians? Yes. That one. There was one time I had a hard time and you came to see me by surprise (?) with food, doughnuts kot. How considerate and to be honest I appreciate what you did there the most. 

You are a good guy. But that doesn't mean you are not annoying lewls. Of course, kita ada on and off. Gaduh baik or kalau tak gaduh pun more likely berdebat cemtu but sedikit sebanyak damn it's annoying and hurt. Hahaha. And kekadang the jokes terlebih sampai aku tak rasa that as a joke but aku cool je until that one time i felt that's it. Sebab tu ada masa bila hang melawak aku balas semberono or tak balas. Yyeah. Tak nak gaduh over petty things so I chose that way. I sorted my feeling that way. Didn't want to put the blame on you too~~~ 

And there were times I felt like aku bergantung dengan hang too much. I was too comfortable. The thing is, aku tak suka rasa macam tu. Aku tak suka rasa seperti hidup bergantung dengan orang. Bergantung dengan hang by means, when I have problems I'll share with you. Especially regarding my studies. Lagipun, hang pun ada kerja hang sendiri, hang pun tengah belajar juga, tak nak ganggu. So I decided to put a gap between us until I didn't realise that kita dah tak macam dulu, kita dan tak cerita-cerita, or randomly talking about current issues and etc. And the worst, aku dah tak ingat tentang hang maksud aku, hang belajar tahun berapa and all. Time flies so fast, man and yeah. Sumpah sedih but what to do. I did that, to us. I started it first. 

Yes, I tried to talk to you back simply just to know your well being but something stopped me. And sometimes I feel like I'm a nuisance to you lewls~ I did one day, contact you but it felt different. Like, you were cold to me and so I decided not to prolonged the conversation. Maybe just maybe I did hurt you too. But I hurt too. 

So continue, to be honest aku bebetul rasa that you are one of the reasons I managed to survive in law school till I got into degree in law too. I really appreciate segala apa yang hang pernah bantu aku. Bila aku tak yakin pada diri sendiri, when I was in doubts and all. And remember the thing hang buat "open this when you are sad, happy, etc...." That. Yup, I appreciate that too. It helped.Thanks a lot dude. 

I'll pray the best for you. I know you are a good guy & friend , smart but a bit dramatic (lewls) and caring lah. Yyea... I miss you and know that I never forget you. I may be cold or rude to you sometimes but please consider that as I'm having PMS (eventhough I'm not at that time) LOL. Kbye.

Hahaha, that's all. Actually too much things to say but I could't put it into words. Thank you for everything. Take care there.

:: NN ::